There have been in my life — and they may still happen today though they’re now more facts than feelings — when I have felt as though sadness would overwhelm me. Something didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to, or I was secretly hurt by a thing and was in conflict with someone inside of me, or I was agitated about what might not have happened in the past. Life in those moments can be difficult to bear and the deepest fear begins an ambivalent journey for its avoidance from agony.